Daisy...all in the love of you!

This video is just what I need today and so I thought I would share it with you all. When Glacier and Canyon were small Oma taught Glacier this song and as you can see Buddy tries his take on it. It truly has shown me today to be thankful for what I have been blessed with. Okay so as you may all have noticed it has been a while since I have posted. I will admit that my mood has not been that great lately and so I really did not want to bring everyone into my own funk. But since we have so many supporters and I know there are a lot of friends and family praying for us, I thought I better fill you in on our happenings. So yesterday Mom got an email from the lady who has been our ali in this whole Esther adoption. It said that she is saddened by what has happened and that we should consider the answer a no and that the case is closed. There you have it...as unofficial as it is Rwanda does not want us to adopt Esther. I truly felt it in my stomach that was what the outcome was going to be, but I have held out for some hope. But this is not to say that we are giving up completely. This whole process was not only about the adoption, but about a girl who God had placed into my heart and one who we have all learned to love and support. So we will continue on this part of the crusade and move on. Mom and I will be traveling to Rwanda on the 1st of November to see Esther and to get more information on what our new options are. Rwanda does not know what is going to hit them with us two strong passionate women making our way to continue on our quest. I have been very sad lately and like I stated before my faith has been tested. For a whole year I have put every ounce of energy I have to make this possible, I followed all the rules, I treaded lightly because of it being a third world country and now I have been defeated. But only on this aspect of things, I am now picking myself up and making a new plan and hoping to make a change for the better. Esther will always be my little girl and she will always be a part of our family. She may need to be 18 and come over her self, but we will be damn sure that we will include her and take care of her, even with such distance. So for now, I want to thank you all for your continued support and know that we are not done fighting. Please pray for my family as the kids, like us, are having a hard time understanding. But also please pray for Esther as she needs our strength right now. And the last thing I would like to ask soem special prayers for my mom. If you are a mother or a parent yourself you should know how it is to see your children hurting. She has been my rock through this all and I now she could use some strength for this also. She is an amazing woman and her passion for her faith and her family helps me keep going and waking up with a purpose. I love you all.