Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Daisy...all in the love of you!

This video is just what I need today and so I thought I would share it with you all. When Glacier and Canyon were small Oma taught Glacier this song and as you can see Buddy tries his take on it. It truly has shown me today to be thankful for what I have been blessed with. Okay so as you may all have noticed it has been a while since I have posted. I will admit that my mood has not been that great lately and so I really did not want to bring everyone into my own funk. But since we have so many supporters and I know there are a lot of friends and family praying for us, I thought I better fill you in on our happenings. So yesterday Mom got an email from the lady who has been our ali in this whole Esther adoption. It said that she is saddened by what has happened and that we should consider the answer a no and that the case is closed. There you have it...as unofficial as it is Rwanda does not want us to adopt Esther. I truly felt it in my stomach that was what the outcome was going to be, but I have held out for some hope. But this is not to say that we are giving up completely. This whole process was not only about the adoption, but about a girl who God had placed into my heart and one who we have all learned to love and support. So we will continue on this part of the crusade and move on. Mom and I will be traveling to Rwanda on the 1st of November to see Esther and to get more information on what our new options are. Rwanda does not know what is going to hit them with us two strong passionate women making our way to continue on our quest. I have been very sad lately and like I stated before my faith has been tested. For a whole year I have put every ounce of energy I have to make this possible, I followed all the rules, I treaded lightly because of it being a third world country and now I have been defeated. But only on this aspect of things, I am now picking myself up and making a new plan and hoping to make a change for the better. Esther will always be my little girl and she will always be a part of our family. She may need to be 18 and come over her self, but we will be damn sure that we will include her and take care of her, even with such distance. So for now, I want to thank you all for your continued support and know that we are not done fighting. Please pray for my family as the kids, like us, are having a hard time understanding. But also please pray for Esther as she needs our strength right now. And the last thing I would like to ask soem special prayers for my mom. If you are a mother or a parent yourself you should know how it is to see your children hurting. She has been my rock through this all and I now she could use some strength for this also. She is an amazing woman and her passion for her faith and her family helps me keep going and waking up with a purpose. I love you all.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Sweet Glacier sharing Faith

So another random photo, but for me it is really appropriate for my mood today. No words yet on the Esther adoption. It is hard to understand because here for us a week of not knowing is a long time, but in Rwanda it is just a normal time span for them. So being patient is the key to this all. But, in a situation like this and having to be patient for a year... my patience is running thin. Yesterday, I had a great talk with my mom about keeping my faith and not losing it in this time of hardship. As a young believer this concept is VERY hard for me. She is much more stable when it comes to this and all she has been through has solidified how important it is to keep your faith. Like she told me, when all else falls apart, then you will only have your faith to fall back on and if you let go of it then what would you be left with? Am I fully back to my beliefs, today maybe...tomorrow maybe not so much. I am so tested and I am so sad about it all, so that being said there are still good days and more bad days, but with my families support I am continuing to move along. So, this picture is important to me today as it is Glacier's first Communion photo. It was such a wonderful day and we are so proud of her for this important achievement. She reminds me to be happy and to believe in the big plan. What that is...I still questions and like mom told me yesterday, I may not know for years ahead. But today I am keeping the faith and smiling at our sweet little Glacier. I will remember to be strong for them and for Esther. My heart hurts for her the most, but I love her and I hope that she feels that so far away. So together let's keep our faith and send our positive energy to her. And in your prayers, pray for the minister to have a change of heart and to view this like we do.







Thursday, October 4, 2007

Simple joys....



This picture is old, but I really love it and wanted to share it with you. It is so touching and really makes you appreciate each moment and how quick our kids grow and change. Never will there be a moment again this serene and quiet. This picture also shows just how much Oma and Opa love their grandchildren. They are now home and really missed everyone, especially the little ones. Oma already called the kids this morning before school...she has definitely been having withdrawals. It is so nice to have them back and to hear about their trip. They are such wonderful people and have done so much for the people of Rwanda and they love them all so much. I am still really sad about the whole Esther situation, but they keep so positive and keep reminding me that we will keep being persistent. It really comes closer to home to hear them tell the stories in person, and breaks my heart each time, but like my little cousin, Lucky,told me...chin up...so I will keep my chin up! Well, not much more to say today, just thought I would blog to tell you all that the African travelers are back and safe. Remember to cherish each moments like these pictures and reflect on what God has blessed us all with. i am so thankful to have so much support and such a great family. And lastly, if my dear sweet cousin Jackie is reading this...I love you very much and your family and thank you for being such a kind and compassionate woman...and because you are a tiny bit older than me, I can truly say you inspire me to be a better person and I look up to you as a great role model to be a wonderful mother, friend, cousin, and woman. Remember those simple joys...

Monday, October 1, 2007

Ehhhh! Sit on it Potzie!


So, as you can see not much has been happening around our home. Glacier had a volleyball game on Saturday and they won all three matches! She did so good and even made some points. She is kind of obsessed as we spent the whole day at the gym watching all the teams. But it was fun just spending the day with her doing something she likes. She has never really taken a strong liking to anything but Africa so it is nice to see her into it. Buddy boy spent the game eating candy and Frito's, so needless to say he was a delight.

Not much in Esther land either. My sweet mom went to the minister's office today by herself and I am sure took her kindness with her. It sounds as if she has made a positive impression for us and I am sure if anything they now see how much this means to us and hopefully will find some compassion in it all. For now we are waiting again. My mood and attitude has changed in the last few days over this...I am now mad about the whole thing and determined to fight for Esther. So watch out Mr. Rwanda president...I am hoping to make a lifetime story about how I go to the legislature and change the laws. (in my dreams I know, but I want this so bad). So for now, just keep sending the positive energy and we will continue to wait.

I am so excited to see mom and dad back in the US. we will be picking them up late Wednesday night. Pray that they have a save trip.
Until then...ehhhh! Stay cool like the FONZ!